A new day brings a new
problem to a brother
And all I gots ta say is thank
god for my mother
Cause without my mommy dear my
life would've been joke
Either locked up playin' dead and
still slangin' dope but nope
The lord he had a plan for me
And with his help my mother
made a man of me
Didn't blindfold me to the world
we was livin' in
Taught me how to save my little di vidends
So when I graduated I'd have
a little school money
But in the sixth grade I wanted
to be the school dummy
And flunked outta school
with the flag pole
And left my mother dear at
home with a sad soul
Because my mother worked the
fingers to the bone
Cause we was alone,
and me I bought a death home
My real pops he broke
out with the style
So I respect my step dad,
for raisin' another nig ga's child
So now we livin' comft
able
Taught me the game and
how to be responsible
But back then I couldn't see it
I wanted to be a grown man at four
teen so the kid's leavin'
And ended up in a big fight
And told me not to come home
until I got my shit right
So now I'm livin' in my
grandma's home
My grandma's strong,
she's got nine kids of her own
And keepin' me ain't no big deal
But now that I'm much older I
see just how the shit feels
Being kind- hearted,
not wantin' to tell me no
Even though my grandfather
just had a stroke
And now the money's low
And pretty soon a brother's
gonna have ta go
Or either try to find a job
so I can help out
I'm in the ghetto,
I gots ta get myself out
And when I get out I gotta
try to pave the way
So my family can have a
better place to stay
I'm losin' all hope,
a brother's fallin' short
I can't cope,
so now I'm slangin' dope
And now my granny knows
I'm doin' wrong
She just prayin' for me heavily
Take care of her grandson
And the lord must of heard her prayer
Cause he made me get a grip
And got me on up outta there
I heard my mother say
them streets is gonna kill ya
You couldn't have told
me nothin' back then
But now I feel
I'm eighteen,
and now I'm havin' big fun
My baby's mother just
had my first son
May eleven,
I never will forget the day
A star's born,
let's name him little Scarface
My first born and yo I'm a proud father
I gotta son, I gots ta be my son's father
And selling dope ain't the
way that I can get ahead
But what the hell,
I gots ta keep my baby fed
I buy him milk,
and pampers trying ta do my part
And he's my son,
I gots ta try to make him hard
I buy him clothes,
and jewelry not the Tonka toys
Because the Tonka toys
will only punk my boy
And I don't want my son
to look at life
Through a replica of reality try
in' to make it life- like
But yet and still I let my son be a kid
Just give him up the real,
exactly like my momma did
So when he gets to be a man
he'll appreciate
The game I gave him way back
when he used to roller skate
And now my son is four years old
I really gots ta give the real and
try to play the father's role
Because these years
he'll remember most
So it's all about little Marcus
and me becomin' close
But I got a bunch of obstacles
If it ain't my line of work it's the girlies
on my popsicle
Now everybody's got my baby
Wantin' to have their hands in my pocket
tryin to drive me crazy
"It's your daughter,
don't she look like you?"
I just can't tell,
why don't you take it to ma momma do
Because my mother knows the real deal
All these hoochies poppin' coochie
tryin' to get a free meal
So now we in and outta cope
Tryin' to get mo money,
braggin' om the child support
Tellin' her friends that
she's breakin' me
Now everybody knows,
that she was just fakin' G
Come to find out, the girl never had me
She's the baby's mother but me
I ain't the baby's daddy
And biological tests can prove
You gotta get up off of me and
go after the other dude
But now I finally got a real daughter
No need for the testin'
I know that I'm the baby's father
I heard my daddy say them
hoes will try ta kill ya
You couldn't have told
me nothin' back then
But now I feel ya
I feel ya
twenty- two and
finally got a grip on life
It's nineteen ninety- three,
I put away my pocket knife
And got a bigger stick to fight with
I'm young and black so my choice
ain't a nightstick
Because we livin' in a concentration set
And everyday, we face to face with death
I seen my homies go and come
And judgment day is just something
we can't run from
So I know my number's comin' up
So I gotta protect myself from
suckers who be runnin' up
And even though I hate
killin' off my own kind
I gotta be a man and as a
man I'm a defend mine
My brother corners trying to keep
the neighborhood at peace
Don't fight each other,
we got's ta stand and fight the beast
So united we stand but we
gonna fall quick
Because we always trying to take
another brother's shit
And the cops is in the same vote
Just because we comin' up quick they
think we slang dope
They shootin' ta kill,
they gas ain't sparkin' goods
They shot my long time partner
Rudy in cold blood
And now the story's all twisted up
And if they gave the cop the chair
I really wouldn't give a fuck
Because she left my partner's
family with memories
And after hearin' this I know
you don't remember me
But yet in still I find it hard
for me to stay in touch
I see his parents and then
I started breakin' up
Because I know what you did was wrong
But you won't realize un
til you dead and gone
It ain't no justifiable homicide,
you never gave a warning
You straight up shot him from behind
But all the cryin' in the world
ain't gonna bring him back
You give a gat to a black he
don't know how to act
But you gotta tell your story to the judge
Not the imitation judge,
the judge that everybody loves
And if the man upstairs
grants you forgiveness
Then in reality you took
care of your business
But regardless I know you want to kill me
But I ain't going' out like that
Ya feel me?
