Hello? (Ay, yo, B, what's up yo?)
What's goin' on man?
Ay, I've been tryin' to gets us some
mild jooj, spoke to 'em lately?
What d'you mean have I spoke
to 'em? You ain't hear?
Nah (they got you ragged out this house on the fuckin'
street Jackson)
For what? ('Cause he talkin' about killin' himself
and takin' people with him)
You lyin' (and he sellin'
mad drugs in the system)
Man this niggas gone,
he's lost yo (yo)
Let's look behind the
Swarovski crystals
Behind the .50 calibers
and the pistols
Misused, pardoned self got to excuse,
my issues
For me just to have you as a ritual
But, I ain't as crazy as I seem to be
It's just that nothin' is the
way that is seem's to me
I'm feelin' less then, druggin'
him up with anti- depressents
In essence I'm threatenin' my
character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoes
Mixed with some new clothes
should cover my loop holes
If I'm misunderstood or misguided
Started when they passed the
L' said, "Just try it"
When I don't wanna get out of bed,
I just fight it
Sometimes I don't eat for days,
I just diet
Only live once so if I just like it
I ain't even checkin' the price,
I just buy shit
I'm thinkin that will just hide it
But all it takes is life to ignite shit
I'm thinkin' 'bout death
wonderin' how I'm gonna go
I can't be insane for just
wantin' to know
In my head I die often,
I used to think of suicide often
Good suit on and a nice coffin
But, that ain't somethin'
I would try myself
Still they lock me in this room all by myself
I need a, I think I need a...
I can't even believe the shit
you're saying right now...
This what I'm tryin' to tell you man,
was just like the other night we were at the club
This nigga ran out the club,
start shootin' my man up (what?)
For no reason, this nigga talkin' about somethin',
you the only person that can save him
Apocalypse coming and he's the
saviuor of all man kind, and
Oh it's crazy, this nigga's not
even himself no more, yo
They say my symptoms are aggressive
They titled me a compulsive obsessive
slash manic depressive
They trying to tell me that I'm
a con and I game niggas
That's one reason I don't
even entertain niggas
Not important who they are, I
won't name niggas
They'd like to say I got a tendency
to blame niggas
I keep fuckin' shit up but keep tryin'
If ya'll would just trust me I
wouldn't just keep lyin'
If I had
bread I wouldn't be in debt
Let me clarify get in Def
I feel like every time I been less
Whenever I invest,
whenever I inset I feel I'm innept
I try to make them understand but
they just won't incept
I tell them four million others, I
am the templed
There ain't no book that tells a story,
there ain't no index
We got some different type of cuts
and no they not princess
All this indigest seemingly in less
How I take in stress when I
always went best?
Aching in my chest yeah and still
it won't break me
They say the room is padded
for my own safety
But the cushion don't soften shit
They locked the door but still they
let my thoughts in it
And no one can tell me
why I'm here
I can't even see the sky from here
I guess my time is near
Ay, yo, we really need to go see that nigga,
yo
I don't know, we could go to Denver
Last time I saw him,
I went lookin' for him, man
On his own, IVs all in his arm
Lookin' like he's in a daze
He was gone,
he wouldn't let me near him
He had a guard near him
on 24 hour watch
Had all these subscriptions
he was taking
I don't know what's going on...
Joe Budden 
